Book Review: Even When You Lie To Me by Jessica Alcott

When The Meaning of Meaning Starts To Feel Meaningless


In just one sitting, as I stare at the last page thinking how this book managed to ruined half of my future plans in life, I just realized two things all at once- one, if you want to cuss all day about how good this book is, then better start reading and skipped this review at all. And two, I’d like to warn you that this book might score you straight home.

First things first, the story is all about a shy and bookworm teenage girl that found love and self-acceptance in the persona of her English teacher- yes, a student-teacher relationship to which we may see as forbidden but exciting, consuming, steamy, and let’s admit it, a usual plot. I know some of you may feel like, ‘Why bother reading a book that goes the same with all other books?’

This book just hits you straight in the heart in a very painful and truthful way. I may not do enough justice to justify how I felt upon reading this book because it’s just painfully beautiful I want to smack everyone in my line of sight.

“… No one’s that special. No one’s meant for you. It’s not ill-fated or star-crossed or unjust. It’s just desire, stupid and meaningless and base.”

“… Why is it so easy to see that other people’s lives are random and pointless and so hard to see that your own is too?”

That is what I’m talking about people.

From Goodreads:

Charlie, a senior, isn’t looking forward to her last year of high school. Another year of living in the shadow of her best friend, Lila. Another year of hiding behind the covers of her favorite novels. Another year of navigating her tense relationship with her perfectionist mom.

But everything changes when she meets her new English teacher. Mr. Drummond is smart. Irreverent. Funny. Hot. Everyone loves him. And Charlie thinks he’s the only one who gets her.

She also thinks she might not be the only one with a crush.

In this stunning debut, Jessica Alcott explores relationships-and their boundaries-in a way that is both searingly honest and sympathetic.


Book Review: Just One Day by Gayle Forman


From Goodreads:

Allyson Healey’s life is exactly like her suitcase—packed, planned, ordered. Then on the last day of her three-week post-graduation European tour, she meets Willem. A free-spirited, roving actor, Willem is everything she’s not, and when he invites her to abandon her plans and come to Paris with him, Allyson says yes. This uncharacteristic decision leads to a day of risk and romance, liberation and intimacy: 24 hours that will transform Allyson’s life.

A book about love, heartbreak, travel, identity, and the “accidents” of fate,Just One Day shows us how sometimes in order to get found, you first have to get lost. . . and how often the people we are seeking are much closer than we know.

The first in a sweepingly romantic duet of novels. Willem’s story—Just One Year—is coming soon!


So, I’ve been quite a wanderlust while reading . Europe is my dream and past life continent. One thing that I’m concern about, probably by the fact that I’ve watched Taken, is that how can a teenager agree to go with a stranger in a foreign place? Even if he flashes the most tantalizing smile of all time, I’ll disagree for sure.

But then why am I taking the story seriously? When I can laugh, smile, cry, and ponder the difference of falling in love and being in love all at once?

Just One Day seemed to resemble If I Stay’s book two Where She Went (which was both written by Gayle Forman) in the part where two persons start to wander into different places and by the end of the day, realizations came pouring down like a bad-ass villain showering electrocutes all over you. You don’t have to like and love the book, you’re just going to involuntarily do it. Everyone is an adventure seeker, and if given the chance that travelling was free, I bet I’d never see you in your house reading this.

Just One Day is for everyone 1. who wants to feel the vibe of Europe in a very compelling and creative story telling of two strangers traveling in a country in search for some accidents that’ll make the trip more memorable 2. for those who might want to come out of their comfort zone and realized that well, life is waving with its hands and feet swaying to encourage and experience it and 3. if you want another Etienne St. Clair and Anna love story style (Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins), you should definitely go for this book.

From death to life, travel to unexpected romance, Gayle Forman never lose the style of getting readers’ attention, I mean she has the magic in her hands and mind to play with words so good that you ought to adore her skills in narrating and giving her characters its own life and distinctions, like they were really real in the first place. The thing about Gayle Forman’s books is that they always talk about the “after”, not the kind of happily ever after but the realistic “after” of every situation the characters are in.

Yes, the last part is my review and the first part is my wistful and babbling mind.

Book Review: Cinder and Ella by Kelly Oram


From Goodreads:

It’s been almost a year since eighteen-year-old Ella Rodriguez was in a car accident that left her crippled, scarred, and without a mother. After a very difficult recovery, she’s been uprooted across the country and forced into the custody of a father that abandoned her when she was a young child. If Ella wants to escape her father’s home and her awful new stepfamily, she must convince her doctors that she’s capable, both physically and emotionally, of living on her own. The problem is, she’s not ready yet. The only way she can think of to start healing is by reconnecting with the one person left in the world who’s ever meant anything to her—her anonymous Internet best friend, Cinder.

Hollywood sensation Brian Oliver has a reputation for being trouble. There’s major buzz around his performance in his upcoming film The Druid Prince, but his management team says he won’t make the transition from teen heartthrob to serious A-list actor unless he can prove he’s left his wild days behind and become a mature adult. In order to douse the flames on Brian’s bad-boy reputation, his management stages a fake engagement for him to his co-star Kaylee. Brian isn’t thrilled with the arrangement—or his fake fiancée—but decides he’ll suffer through it if it means he’ll get an Oscar nomination. Then a surprise email from an old Internet friend changes everything.


I am so back in my real and unreal world! Although I have to say that I’m still in the midst of frustration and fear over my still unannounced grades! This semester really wreck my brain and body.

By the way, I know there are lots of readers out there who are waiting for their own  Cinder/ Brian Oliver. I can’t blame you, the has the charm.

But I have to say that Cinder and Ella didn’t really get me at the first chapters. I’ve read almost all of Kelly Oram’s books and I can’t help but be quite disappointed that it did not quite meet what I was expecting from this book. The first part where Ella was still in the state of devastation of accepting her mother’s death did not make at impact to me at all. She brought the subject like she was grieving but I barely felt the sadness at all.

But then again, I WAS WRONG and I stand to be corrected. As the story goes on, Ella slowly dissolve the barrier to her feeling that got me teary-eyed and all. I imagine patting her shoulder and mentally making a banner to cheer her up. Author Kelly Oram didn’t lose the magic to pinch my heart and make me feel like there’s a lump in my throat.

Overall, I had totally enjoyed reading it! You get to laugh, cry, and be wistful at times. Come on guys, Zac Efron/ Logan Lerman/ Ryan Guzman/ Alex Pettyfer (definitely my list) might be reading your blog for all you know.

Thank you Kelly Oram for keeping my hopes up! I’ll email you someday if ever Zac greeted me on my birthday! Hahaha! xoxo

Book Review: Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher


From Goodreads:

Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a mysterious box with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers thirteen cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker, his classmate and crush who committed suicide two weeks earlier.

On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he’ll find out how he made the list.

Through Hannah and Clay’s dual narratives, debut author Jay Asher weaves an intricate and heartrending story of confusion and desperation that will deeply affect teen readers.


My heart was still pounding after I’m done reading this book.

Okay, I did not exactly got the hype of this-is-so-damn-good-i’m-exploding feels, but I did got the “Mom, I think I’m getting a heart burn?” feels. Guess they were both the same. But, either way, Thirteen Reasons Why was a really nice book.

I honestly felt that things that has anything to do with suicide is out of feeling all alone eventhough they were not. I mean we feel alone several times in our lives, but it never dawn on me or to some of you, that out of complete helplessness and some self-centered thinking, you’d commit something bad to yourself. To put periods to all the questions left unaswered. But, like I always tell myself, we have different ways of coping with our own inner conflicts.

And Thirteen Reasons Why enlightened me with that matter. At the age so young and surrounded by minds of people with different goals and ways of proving themselves to others, I did understand that someone like Hannah Baker can’t take all of it. I now understand that not all people just get along with the flow, or do something about it right away. Sometimes, there are people who stop and look at it the way we never saw. Sometimes, it’s just too much for them when we think we can hanle it if we are in their shoes.

Okay, enough with my reflection paper.

Jay Asher, you got me first with your book “The Future us”, which was completely different with Thirteen Reasons Why. But, you got me once again. Just like any other authors that I’ve admired, you had a way of touching someone’s life with your words. You had me gripping and waiting for what will happen next. How I wish I could have that magic of yours too. Haha!

I must say this book is a must-read! It’s an eye opener and a way to understand what we thought was an act out of complete selfishness.

Jay Asher, I love you two times now. Waiting for you new books to be released!

Book Review: Twenty Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler



“Don’t worry, Anna. I’ll tell her, okay? Just let me think about the best way to do it.”
“Promise me? Promise you won’t say anything?”
“Don’t worry.” I laughed. “It’s our secret, right?”

According to Anna’s best friend, Frankie, twenty days in Zanzibar Bay is the perfect opportunity to have a summer fling, and if they meet one boy every day, there’s a pretty good chance Anna will find her first summer romance. Anna lightheartedly agrees to the game, but there’s something she hasn’t told Frankie–she’s already had her romance, and it was with Frankie’s older brother, Matt, just before his tragic death one year ago.

TWENTY BOY SUMMER explores what it truly means to love someone, what it means to grieve, and ultimately, how to make the most of every beautiful moment life has to offer.


Sarah Ockler’s Twenty Boy Summer broke my forever broken heart. And that’s what I told her.

It was all at once heart shattering, witty, and one of the most life altering book I’ve ever read. Another book that 1) I couldn’t put into words how much I’m enthralled and fascinated 2) made me realize how boring was my summer for the last years.

Sarah Ockler’s story telling skills was way too awesome that I can imagine myself wandering in Zanzibar Bay, California without even noticing it.

I took a deep breath, look around my room, felt my chest rising and falling slowly, and cried silently. It was hard to tell what’s real and not nowadays. It’s like a friend told me what happened to her last summer.

What really got me hooked with this book was how beautiful it was described and how the author played with her words with this book. Imagine the heat of the sun and warm breeze of the air all around you and how the water would splash in your feet like some enigmatic entity- Ockler really nailed it Though I’m a bit sensitive about the V part. They are only sixteen year old teenagers, helloooo Mother Nature.

But, all in all, I’m totally recommending this book for a summer escapade feeling or if you’re not feeling like it.

This is my I’m-back-after-sucking-my-life review! Hahahaha!

Book Review: The Distance Between Us by Kasie West


From Goodreads:

Seventeen-year-old Caymen Meyers studies the rich like her own personal science experiment, and after years of observation she’s pretty sure they’re only good for one thing—spending money on useless stuff, like the porcelain dolls in her mother’s shop.

So when Xander Spence walks into the store to pick up a doll for his grandmother, it only takes one glance for Caymen to figure out he’s oozing rich. Despite his charming ways and that he’s one of the first people who actually gets her, she’s smart enough to know his interest won’t last. Because if there’s one thing she’s learned from her mother’s warnings, it’s that the rich have a short attention span. But Xander keeps coming around, despite her best efforts to scare him off. And much to her dismay, she’s beginning to enjoy his company.

She knows her mom can’t find out—she wouldn’t approve. She’d much rather Caymen hang out with the local rocker who hasn’t been raised by money. But just when Xander’s attention and loyalty are about to convince Caymen that being rich isn’t a character flaw, she finds out that money is a much bigger part of their relationship than she’d ever realized. And that Xander’s not the only one she should’ve been worried about.


Caymen Meyers is I guess, the most humorous fictitious character I’ve ever read, met, felt… what? And Kasie West is I guess, one of the coolest authors in the entire universe that has ever been created.

The Distance Between Us is all about Caymen Meyers- a scienece geek who is an expert when it comes on criticizing if a person is rich or not and that she is more than sure that rich people did spend their money on worthless things. And Xander Spence- a rich guy that get hooked with Caymen’s sarcasm and who’s willing enough to show that cutie-cute smiles and digging holes in the cemetery were enough to show how sincere he is to Caymen.

But, she is 100% sure that her mom would disagree with Xander because of some past that still sits in their hearts. And that they still have a lot of problems to think rather than getting smitten at all. Now, that their relationship is in trouble, how will they be able to prove to her mom that Xander, after all, is unlike any other rich guy? That he’s worth fighting for?

What’s to adore about this book?

“Caymen.” “Xander.” “Does this mean I won the game?” “I didn’t realize we were playing a game.” He picks up the doll and backs away with his lower-lip-biting smile. “I think you did.”

Caymen Meyer’s body is made up of sarcastic cells that operates all the systems in her body, especially in the nervous system. I can totally relate with how sarcastic she is (because I am- sometimes) eventhough others don’t find it funny at all. It’s the big thing about this book ‘cos we can’t always find fictional characters that were as witty and as humorous like Caymen.

“I don’t know. I try not to think about it too much. I’m perfectly satisfied with my life. I think unhappiness comes from unfulfilled expectations.”
Another ping! And this is why I love this book! It doesn’t focus on delivering sappy love stories but it focuses on struggles of a simple family that clings on a small amount of money they get from the shop to survive each day. I like that Caymen’s character here didn’t neglect her responsibilities as a daughter to her mom. Eventhough she’s completely unaware of how much work she had poured on their shop, she was still finding ways to help her mother so that the shop, her mom’s passion, won’t close at all.

It also shows the struggle of a mother raising a daughter all by herself. This might encourage every reader that we can’t just rush things that way we want just because our raging hormones tell us so. And it also tells us the conflict on how hard it is to choose a career for yourself when you get to college! It’s not like you choose this and then later on shift to another course again because you don’t enjoy yourself at all with it. One big mistake and bam! You perfectly ruined the path to the way you want to take.

There are two types of people in our small beach town: the rich and the people who sell things to the rich.
The book also exhibits that social status doesn’t matter when it comes to love and that we shouldn’t conclude faster than the speed of light that rich people are arrogant, bastard, and whatnot. There are still rich people out there that are good and willing to help those people who are need or those who are in search for companions.

• TeamCayXan all the way!
“Don’t worry, you can cover your eyes. I won’t make fun of you . . . too much.”
Another boyfriend to add on my list! Xander Spence, guys! I’m still wondering if guys like him really exist. Hahaha.

So, I’m sorry for the late update (talking to myself) and I hope that this is still legit enough to pass as a book review. xoxo

More Than Jamie Baker by Kelly Oram


Summary: (Goodreads)

Jamie Baker, the only girl in the world with superpowers, has now accepted who she is and learned to control her power. Not to mention she has the best boyfriend on the planet. Life is finally looking good. But the day she witnesses an accident and decides not to save the guy out of fear of being exposed, she realizes that simply being Jamie Baker isn’t enough.
After seeing Jamie so wrecked with guilt, the ever-helpful Ryan Miller decides it’s time to make all of his fantasies about turning his girlfriend into an honest-to-goodness superhero become a reality.

Of course, coming up with a decent Super Name and fending off all of Ryan’s attempts to get her into spandex aren’t the only problems Jamie faces. The more her alter ego starts to make headlines, the harder it becomes for Jamie to hide her extracurricular activities from her best friend, the government, radical scientists, and the mysterious new guy who is determined to steal her from her boyfriend.


“Hello, my name is Jamie Baker—and I am not a superhero.

I repeat: I am not a superhero.”

Since I’ve already read a lot of reviews and spoilers about this book (‘cos I’m very agitated to read this fantastic sequel), I immediately went to the marry-me page. HAHAHA. And I felt myself smiling like I was the one getting married.

So, now that Jamie Baker is starting her year as a freshman college student, she thought that everything would be fine as long as she keep herself from exposing her powers. Like, she has Becky as her bestfriend and Ryan as her super boyfriend sealed with a super kiss, what’s to wish for, right? She also thought that somehow Visticorp would stop looking for her where abouts after Mr. Edwards was sent to jail for his attempts on getting to know about Jamie’s power by hurting MY (Mine. HA-HA-HA) Ryan.

But, that’s just her thoughts. And that thoughts were obviously wrong. With Ryan, pursuing her to be the good hero and all (and being so persistent about wearing Wonderwoman’s costume someday), and an accident that will trigger her conscience to be a hero for others- Jamie Baker’s life starts to spark AGAIN. And this time, with utmost danger she never expected.

Now, I’m here to provide all the Vitamins and sparks I’ve gained from reading and drooling over More Than Jamie Baker!

“Funny enough to steal you from your too nice, too good-looking, too perfect boyfriend?”
“Mr. all-American?” Teddy shook his head. “Won’t last.”

Visticorp is of course, one of the most pesky villains you would never want to have in your life. And to sum it up, another pesky dude comes into the scene- Teodoro SPOILER ALERT!.Teodoro is really getting into every parts of my body! I knew from the very beginning that he’s from Visticorp. But, reading it with my own eyes says that this is a nice plot twist. He’s way mad than Donovan. Well, it is still a vitamin ‘cos they add to the thrill of this book. Thrilling to the point that I want to strangle him with my own hands. So effin’ obssessed dude.

VIT. B: RyanXJamie FEVER
“It’s my dream, Baker. I’ll dress you however I want.” His smile turned wicked. “Or maybe I won’t dress you at all.” 
“I know, because he makes me feel whole. He makes me feel like I can do anything. I know, because I love him. More than I’ve ever loved anyone or anything ever in my entire life.”

I think I’ll never have enough of RyanXJamie- forever. Jamie is no Ice Queen when it comes to Ryan and his ryan-ish grin and ryan-ish EVERYTHING. Jamie is Jamie. It’s awesome how good people can change you into a better person and makes you live your life with a lot of protons- positive energy! I admire all the male fictional characters that I’ve met in my dreams (Hahaha) but, with Ryan, I’m willing to trade all those fictional characters I’ve read and drooled over (except for Harry. HARRY, guys). He’s so sweet that he complimented Jamie’s adamant attitude. Do we still have someone like Ryan nowadays?

VIT. C: Nerve-wracking TWISTS!
Antonio’s answering smile was a little sad. “Let’s hope so,” he whispered quietly, and then he kissed me.

I love to spoil everyone and how they want to strangle me if ever they saw me wandering around the streets just because I spoil everything about a book. But, I’m leaving it all to you guys, right now. Go grab More Than Jamie Baker and electrocute everything once you are done reading it (except for the book. They are precious little babies!)

I hate to say this but, I’m a bit bored with the other parts of the book because it seems that the phasing is too slow. But, I am way too happy that there is a sequel to Being Jamie Baker! I so love her! It’s my first time to read this kind of genre and I instantly fell in love with all the characters!

Hoping you’ll going to add this on your to-read and to-love list! xoxo

Book Review 101: Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell


Summary: (Goodreads)

Set over the course of one school year in 1986, ELEANOR AND PARK is the story of two star-crossed misfits – smart enough to know that first love almost never lasts, but brave and desperate enough to try. When Eleanor meets Park, you’ll remember your own first love – and just how hard it pulled you under.


I have to inhale and exhale HARD (for like gazillion times) before closing the book and stare at nothing as my heart starts to make irregular heartbeats to which I thought was because my hypothalamus is already searching for Eleanor and Park’s whereabouts.

It was heart-achingly beautiful. It was like my heart have been teared into million pieces and brought back (with life and heartbeats that could rock the life out of me) with those three words.

She reminded Park of a scarecrow or one of the trouble dolls his mom kept on her dresser. Like something that wouldn’t survive in the wild.

The story happened around August 1986 where in two sixteen-year-olds found themselves accidentally falling in love with each other through their common interests. Though you would find Park quite irritated with how Eleanor look and the way she dress herself.

So, what’s to adore about this book?

Except he didn’t.
When Eleanor got on the bus that afternoon, the Asian kid opened up Watchmen right where they’d left off.

… called his grandma to tell her that all he wanted for his birthday on November was AA batteries.

Then he slid the silk and his fingers into her open palm.
And Eleanor disintegrated.

Those sweet gestures that’ll make your heart flutter again and again. Eventhough the setting was far from the way I grew up (like technologies and whatnot), I still feel the tingles running all over my body whenever they exchange those sweet shy gestures that is obviously part of being a sixteen year old kid that is new to loovee. It made me remember the first time I experience those things when I was in my sixth grade. (which is way too young!) Yea, tried holding hands with a boy and we immediately separate ‘cos we are both sweating (from fear. hahaha).

“I think I live for you. I don’t think I even breather when we’re not together.”
And you think I can live now without even thinking the two of you every now and then? You guys are my brand of Romeo and Juliet (the best version EVER).

“I want everyone to meet you. You’re my favorite person of all time.”
“She’s nothing and you’re… everything. You’re everything, Eleanor.

Well, I am more than sure that this is my favorite book of all time. I was really about to go mad on how these books that I’ve read nowadays makes me feel like I’m really living in their time and place and then for like two days left me like a lifeless organism breathing purposely just to reminisce the last words I’ve read from the book and after which- completely zoning out from reality.

There’s no shame with Park. Nothing is dirty. Because Park is the sun.

It was really hard to get back to your life (normally) when you know that after you’re done reading the book, your heart won’t stop from aching on how good or bad or worse- how cliff hanging the story ended up. Imagine how a book could change everything about you when you’ve just held it for less than two days? Or I’m just being a dork, or over reacting or worse- I’m crazy.

Hoping this will help you to decide what is next on your to-read and books-to-love-until-eternity list! 🙂

Book Review 101: The Sky Is Everywhere by Jandy Nelson


Summary: (Goodreads)

Seventeen-year-old Lennie Walker, bookworm and band geek, plays second clarinet and spends her time tucked safely and happily in the shadow of her fiery older sister, Bailey. But when Bailey dies abruptly, Lennie is catapulted to center stage of her own life – and, despite her nonexistent history with boys, suddenly finds herself struggling to balance two. Toby was Bailey’s boyfriend; his grief mirrors Lennie’s own. Joe is the new boy in town, a transplant from Paris whose nearly magical grin is matched only by his musical talent. For Lennie, they’re the sun and the moon; one boy takes her out of her sorrow, the other comforts her in it. But just like their celestial counterparts, they can’t collide without the whole wide world exploding.

This remarkable debut is perfect for fans of Sarah Dessen, Deb Caletti, and Francesca Lia Block. Just as much a celebration of love as it is a portrait of loss, Lennie’s struggle to sort her own melody out of the noise around her is always honest, often hilarious, and ultimately unforgettable.


This book is heart-stoppingly beautiful.

“Her death is all over me, I can feel it and everyone can see it, plain as a big black coat wrapped around me on a beautiful spring day. But what I don’t expect is the unprecedented hubbub over some new boy, Joe Fontaine, who arrived in my month-long absence.”

“Been wondering about that actually, Lennon after John?” he asks, again holding my gaze – it’s entirely possible I’m going to faint. Or burst into flames.

Never in my entire existence have I imagined that I’ll be completely head over heels with a book the first time I started to read those beautiful words that will eventually bring me to Lennie’s unfreakingbelievable world.

I have so many thoughts about this book running on my mind that before I knew it, I found myself in the washroom shamelessy talking to myself of how certain I am that this book is really freakin’ fantastic. Wanna know why?

Exhibit A:
 “Still waiting here. How did Bailey brave the radio silence?”
 “I think of St Wilgefortis, who went to sleep beautiful and woke up with a full beard and mustache, and wish that fate on Rachel.  Tonight.”

It was really funny! Funny to the point that my sister is already losing her patience at me because I can’t help but giggle in the middle of the night (and when I told her what I am laughing at- she wants to kill the life out of me for being so weird). It’s really amazing how this book can alter your mood in just one millisecond. Lennie Walker has a good sense humor that I wish to have. She tends to lighten up things without even knowing she did.

Exhibit B:
 “I had this image of us holding hands, like up at The Great Meadow or somewhere, and then taking off into the air.”

 The novel itself is straight to the point. It doesn’t go for tickle-me-first-before-i-spill-the beans type of story. You will fall in love with it over and over again.               

 “I think if we don’t stop kissing, the world is going to explode.”

And I am going to explode too because I’m way overboard with this novel. Never thought I’m going to fall in love with Lennie’s inner classiness and Joe’s dorkiness!

 “I’m so in love with you.”

I really don’t know where did I get these words that you’re currently reading because frankly speaking, it felt like forever before I realize that I’m already done reading the book. Its. Over. But, I swear to all the houseplants out there that I will share this very beautiful story to my friends, family, special someone, or I could even do what Lennie does- write it on a paper, candy wrapper, bench or even in my closet because this is by utmost admiration, one of the most beautiful book I have ever read. I am more than happy to express that before I take my last breathe, Jandy Nelson showed me how wonderful the world really is.

Exhibit C:
“You’re beautiful, Len.”

“No,” I say. Then choke out one word. “Bailey.”

“I know,” he says. But he kisses me anyway. “I can’t help it.” He whispers it right into my mouth. I can’t help it either.

“I don’t believe time heals. I don’t want it to. If I heal, doesn’t that mean I’ve accepted the world without her?”

Lastly, this book will make you cry and mourn like you have lost someone like Bailey in real life. I even have to hid my face from my family because of all the tears I’ve shed- it was like losing something for real. My heart aches and constricts everytime Lennie refuses herself to be happy because she thought it was a selfish act- that she should actually mourn for her sister instead of falling in love. I’m always trying to keep my wig on eventhough I can’t help but be as lost as Lennie, ‘cos I think it will somehow help her ease the pain if she knows there is someone willing to hug and hold her tight.

Grief is forever. It doesn’t go away; it becomes part of you, step for step, breath for breath.”

This book will not only make you laugh, cry, and fall in love all over again or even try to steal Joe from Lennon. This book will make you realize so many things in life.

We can never predict when we’ll die so, we better make the most out of our existence and love all those persons around you eventhough they have done bad things to you. It’s good to know that when you’re gone, people will cry with a smile on their face because you innocently make their life better than you could ever imagine.

Its not like we get to feel true love everyday so, we must cherish every millisecond we are with someone who makes us feel we are they everything. Don’t take them for granted because you will never know if you’re going to find that the one AGAIN which you’ve been praying for so long.

And I realized that forever is eternal- unfathomable just like Lennie’s love for Bailey, Gram, Big, Toby, and Joe. Forever, I guess, is not just a word but a living proof that life is beautiful mess no matter how old we get and no matterhow things around us screwed up. That sky is really at our feet if we could just learn to appreciate little things in life.

Life is a beautiful mess, indeed. And I’m having no second thoughts on being a full-blooded messessentialist.

“If anyone asks where we are, just tell them to look up.”

And if you’re all wondering where I am, I am still reeling. Reeling. Forever. I am madly deeply and utterly in love with this novel. Thank God He sent someone like Jandy Nelson in our lives. You are really a man of letters.

PS. I remember Forrest Gump in this novel.

Book Review 101: Crush by Lacey Weatherford


Summary: (Goodreads)

Cami Wimberley has a plan, and that plan includes no room for boys—especially the big time party animal, Hunter Wilder, no matter how handsome and charismatic he is. She’s beautiful, a senior, extremely talented, gets good grades, and is working her way toward her dream college to be a musical theater major. Everything is perfect.

Hunter Wilder does not want a girlfriend—that would complicate his life way too much right now. He especially doesn’t want this girl, Miss-Goody-Two-Shoes, so how come he can’t keep his eyes off her? He tries to keep her at arms length, but fate seems to keep pushing them together. Before long, it’s obvious to everyone they’re crushing on each other.

As sparks begin to fly, Hunter finds himself sinking deeper and deeper into hot water. Soon he’s scrambling to keep Cami from discovering his dark secret—one that can destroy their entire relationship.


 ” I believe your life can be whatever you want to make of it.”

Certainly. It was just like what I did just to finish this book- doing our laundry and reading Crush as well. I’ve never been this great with multitasking. Do you think I should do this often? Ha-ha-ha for me.

So, if you’re thinking that this book is all about a guy whose really irresistible and definitely someone to swoon over- that is a big check

If you’re also wondering if he’ll do whatever it takes just to get the girl he really likes eventhough others think that he just like to hook up with all the girls he thought was hot- you’re right and wrong. If you’re asking me why, I might as well zip my mouth before you kick my ass for being a brutal spoiler.

And if you thought that the girl is completely the goody-two-shoes type of girl because she’s always refusing to feel that unfathomable desire he had for the guy for he’s known for being a player (literally and figuratively)- well well well, I might as well zip my mouth again.

 I took my red pen and checked the ‘yes’ box before leaning over to put it on his binder. “You win,” I said instead. “I like you.”

And last but definitely not the least, if you’re thinking that this book is the all-sappy-moments-it-sucks type of book- You. Have. To. Look. For. That. Kind. Of. Book. Because. Crush. Is. Not. I am 385% sure.
I couldn’t help turning back to see if there was anything there. There wasn’t, but the light had turned off again.

See? Who would have thought that this book somehow reminded me of Scooby Doo adventures.
She brushed her lips against the side of my face before whispering in my ear. “What my dad doesn’t know won’t hurt him.”

Cami you might as well talk to Val Jensen. I’m sure she’s more than willing to help you with your unevitable raging hormones issue.

“I mean, dear Gabby, my real name is Dylan Wilcock, and I’m a twenty-one year old undercover police officer who was sent here to investigate the suspicious activity surrounding Jordan Henley’s death.”
One of the reasons to read this book.

The book mainly revolves around some kind of a forbidden love (sort of), pack with mystery, horror (yes), and psychotic issues as well.

‘Is it possible to love someone who never really existed?’
Nevertheless, this book deserves to be on your to-read list. Eventhough I’m not considering this as a light novel, it was still mind blowing and really really cute!