Book Review: Even When You Lie To Me by Jessica Alcott

When The Meaning of Meaning Starts To Feel Meaningless


In just one sitting, as I stare at the last page thinking how this book managed to ruined half of my future plans in life, I just realized two things all at once- one, if you want to cuss all day about how good this book is, then better start reading and skipped this review at all. And two, I’d like to warn you that this book might score you straight home.

First things first, the story is all about a shy and bookworm teenage girl that found love and self-acceptance in the persona of her English teacher- yes, a student-teacher relationship to which we may see as forbidden but exciting, consuming, steamy, and let’s admit it, a usual plot. I know some of you may feel like, ‘Why bother reading a book that goes the same with all other books?’

This book just hits you straight in the heart in a very painful and truthful way. I may not do enough justice to justify how I felt upon reading this book because it’s just painfully beautiful I want to smack everyone in my line of sight.

“… No one’s that special. No one’s meant for you. It’s not ill-fated or star-crossed or unjust. It’s just desire, stupid and meaningless and base.”

“… Why is it so easy to see that other people’s lives are random and pointless and so hard to see that your own is too?”

That is what I’m talking about people.

From Goodreads:

Charlie, a senior, isn’t looking forward to her last year of high school. Another year of living in the shadow of her best friend, Lila. Another year of hiding behind the covers of her favorite novels. Another year of navigating her tense relationship with her perfectionist mom.

But everything changes when she meets her new English teacher. Mr. Drummond is smart. Irreverent. Funny. Hot. Everyone loves him. And Charlie thinks he’s the only one who gets her.

She also thinks she might not be the only one with a crush.

In this stunning debut, Jessica Alcott explores relationships-and their boundaries-in a way that is both searingly honest and sympathetic.


Book Review: Just One Day by Gayle Forman


From Goodreads:

Allyson Healey’s life is exactly like her suitcase—packed, planned, ordered. Then on the last day of her three-week post-graduation European tour, she meets Willem. A free-spirited, roving actor, Willem is everything she’s not, and when he invites her to abandon her plans and come to Paris with him, Allyson says yes. This uncharacteristic decision leads to a day of risk and romance, liberation and intimacy: 24 hours that will transform Allyson’s life.

A book about love, heartbreak, travel, identity, and the “accidents” of fate,Just One Day shows us how sometimes in order to get found, you first have to get lost. . . and how often the people we are seeking are much closer than we know.

The first in a sweepingly romantic duet of novels. Willem’s story—Just One Year—is coming soon!


So, I’ve been quite a wanderlust while reading . Europe is my dream and past life continent. One thing that I’m concern about, probably by the fact that I’ve watched Taken, is that how can a teenager agree to go with a stranger in a foreign place? Even if he flashes the most tantalizing smile of all time, I’ll disagree for sure.

But then why am I taking the story seriously? When I can laugh, smile, cry, and ponder the difference of falling in love and being in love all at once?

Just One Day seemed to resemble If I Stay’s book two Where She Went (which was both written by Gayle Forman) in the part where two persons start to wander into different places and by the end of the day, realizations came pouring down like a bad-ass villain showering electrocutes all over you. You don’t have to like and love the book, you’re just going to involuntarily do it. Everyone is an adventure seeker, and if given the chance that travelling was free, I bet I’d never see you in your house reading this.

Just One Day is for everyone 1. who wants to feel the vibe of Europe in a very compelling and creative story telling of two strangers traveling in a country in search for some accidents that’ll make the trip more memorable 2. for those who might want to come out of their comfort zone and realized that well, life is waving with its hands and feet swaying to encourage and experience it and 3. if you want another Etienne St. Clair and Anna love story style (Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins), you should definitely go for this book.

From death to life, travel to unexpected romance, Gayle Forman never lose the style of getting readers’ attention, I mean she has the magic in her hands and mind to play with words so good that you ought to adore her skills in narrating and giving her characters its own life and distinctions, like they were really real in the first place. The thing about Gayle Forman’s books is that they always talk about the “after”, not the kind of happily ever after but the realistic “after” of every situation the characters are in.

Yes, the last part is my review and the first part is my wistful and babbling mind.

Book Review: Cinder and Ella by Kelly Oram


From Goodreads:

It’s been almost a year since eighteen-year-old Ella Rodriguez was in a car accident that left her crippled, scarred, and without a mother. After a very difficult recovery, she’s been uprooted across the country and forced into the custody of a father that abandoned her when she was a young child. If Ella wants to escape her father’s home and her awful new stepfamily, she must convince her doctors that she’s capable, both physically and emotionally, of living on her own. The problem is, she’s not ready yet. The only way she can think of to start healing is by reconnecting with the one person left in the world who’s ever meant anything to her—her anonymous Internet best friend, Cinder.

Hollywood sensation Brian Oliver has a reputation for being trouble. There’s major buzz around his performance in his upcoming film The Druid Prince, but his management team says he won’t make the transition from teen heartthrob to serious A-list actor unless he can prove he’s left his wild days behind and become a mature adult. In order to douse the flames on Brian’s bad-boy reputation, his management stages a fake engagement for him to his co-star Kaylee. Brian isn’t thrilled with the arrangement—or his fake fiancée—but decides he’ll suffer through it if it means he’ll get an Oscar nomination. Then a surprise email from an old Internet friend changes everything.


I am so back in my real and unreal world! Although I have to say that I’m still in the midst of frustration and fear over my still unannounced grades! This semester really wreck my brain and body.

By the way, I know there are lots of readers out there who are waiting for their own  Cinder/ Brian Oliver. I can’t blame you, the has the charm.

But I have to say that Cinder and Ella didn’t really get me at the first chapters. I’ve read almost all of Kelly Oram’s books and I can’t help but be quite disappointed that it did not quite meet what I was expecting from this book. The first part where Ella was still in the state of devastation of accepting her mother’s death did not make at impact to me at all. She brought the subject like she was grieving but I barely felt the sadness at all.

But then again, I WAS WRONG and I stand to be corrected. As the story goes on, Ella slowly dissolve the barrier to her feeling that got me teary-eyed and all. I imagine patting her shoulder and mentally making a banner to cheer her up. Author Kelly Oram didn’t lose the magic to pinch my heart and make me feel like there’s a lump in my throat.

Overall, I had totally enjoyed reading it! You get to laugh, cry, and be wistful at times. Come on guys, Zac Efron/ Logan Lerman/ Ryan Guzman/ Alex Pettyfer (definitely my list) might be reading your blog for all you know.

Thank you Kelly Oram for keeping my hopes up! I’ll email you someday if ever Zac greeted me on my birthday! Hahaha! xoxo

Book Review: Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher


From Goodreads:

Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a mysterious box with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers thirteen cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker, his classmate and crush who committed suicide two weeks earlier.

On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he’ll find out how he made the list.

Through Hannah and Clay’s dual narratives, debut author Jay Asher weaves an intricate and heartrending story of confusion and desperation that will deeply affect teen readers.


My heart was still pounding after I’m done reading this book.

Okay, I did not exactly got the hype of this-is-so-damn-good-i’m-exploding feels, but I did got the “Mom, I think I’m getting a heart burn?” feels. Guess they were both the same. But, either way, Thirteen Reasons Why was a really nice book.

I honestly felt that things that has anything to do with suicide is out of feeling all alone eventhough they were not. I mean we feel alone several times in our lives, but it never dawn on me or to some of you, that out of complete helplessness and some self-centered thinking, you’d commit something bad to yourself. To put periods to all the questions left unaswered. But, like I always tell myself, we have different ways of coping with our own inner conflicts.

And Thirteen Reasons Why enlightened me with that matter. At the age so young and surrounded by minds of people with different goals and ways of proving themselves to others, I did understand that someone like Hannah Baker can’t take all of it. I now understand that not all people just get along with the flow, or do something about it right away. Sometimes, there are people who stop and look at it the way we never saw. Sometimes, it’s just too much for them when we think we can hanle it if we are in their shoes.

Okay, enough with my reflection paper.

Jay Asher, you got me first with your book “The Future us”, which was completely different with Thirteen Reasons Why. But, you got me once again. Just like any other authors that I’ve admired, you had a way of touching someone’s life with your words. You had me gripping and waiting for what will happen next. How I wish I could have that magic of yours too. Haha!

I must say this book is a must-read! It’s an eye opener and a way to understand what we thought was an act out of complete selfishness.

Jay Asher, I love you two times now. Waiting for you new books to be released!

Book Review 101: Eleanor & Park by Rainbow Rowell


Summary: (Goodreads)

Set over the course of one school year in 1986, ELEANOR AND PARK is the story of two star-crossed misfits – smart enough to know that first love almost never lasts, but brave and desperate enough to try. When Eleanor meets Park, you’ll remember your own first love – and just how hard it pulled you under.


I have to inhale and exhale HARD (for like gazillion times) before closing the book and stare at nothing as my heart starts to make irregular heartbeats to which I thought was because my hypothalamus is already searching for Eleanor and Park’s whereabouts.

It was heart-achingly beautiful. It was like my heart have been teared into million pieces and brought back (with life and heartbeats that could rock the life out of me) with those three words.

She reminded Park of a scarecrow or one of the trouble dolls his mom kept on her dresser. Like something that wouldn’t survive in the wild.

The story happened around August 1986 where in two sixteen-year-olds found themselves accidentally falling in love with each other through their common interests. Though you would find Park quite irritated with how Eleanor look and the way she dress herself.

So, what’s to adore about this book?

Except he didn’t.
When Eleanor got on the bus that afternoon, the Asian kid opened up Watchmen right where they’d left off.

… called his grandma to tell her that all he wanted for his birthday on November was AA batteries.

Then he slid the silk and his fingers into her open palm.
And Eleanor disintegrated.

Those sweet gestures that’ll make your heart flutter again and again. Eventhough the setting was far from the way I grew up (like technologies and whatnot), I still feel the tingles running all over my body whenever they exchange those sweet shy gestures that is obviously part of being a sixteen year old kid that is new to loovee. It made me remember the first time I experience those things when I was in my sixth grade. (which is way too young!) Yea, tried holding hands with a boy and we immediately separate ‘cos we are both sweating (from fear. hahaha).

“I think I live for you. I don’t think I even breather when we’re not together.”
And you think I can live now without even thinking the two of you every now and then? You guys are my brand of Romeo and Juliet (the best version EVER).

“I want everyone to meet you. You’re my favorite person of all time.”
“She’s nothing and you’re… everything. You’re everything, Eleanor.

Well, I am more than sure that this is my favorite book of all time. I was really about to go mad on how these books that I’ve read nowadays makes me feel like I’m really living in their time and place and then for like two days left me like a lifeless organism breathing purposely just to reminisce the last words I’ve read from the book and after which- completely zoning out from reality.

There’s no shame with Park. Nothing is dirty. Because Park is the sun.

It was really hard to get back to your life (normally) when you know that after you’re done reading the book, your heart won’t stop from aching on how good or bad or worse- how cliff hanging the story ended up. Imagine how a book could change everything about you when you’ve just held it for less than two days? Or I’m just being a dork, or over reacting or worse- I’m crazy.

Hoping this will help you to decide what is next on your to-read and books-to-love-until-eternity list! 🙂

Book Review 101: Being Jamie Baker by Kelly Oram


Synopsis: (Goodreads)

An accident that should end in tragedy instead gives seventeen-year-old Jamie Baker a slew of uncontrollable superhuman abilities. To keep her secret safe Jamie socially exiles herself, earning the title of Rocklin High’s resident ice queen. But during a supercharged encounter with star quarterback Ryan Miller she literally kisses anonymity goodbye. Now the annoyingly irresistible Ryan will stop at nothing to melt the heart of the ice queen and find out what makes her so special. Unfortunately, Ryan is not the only person on to her secret. Will Jamie learn to contain her unstable powers before being discovered by the media or turned into a government lab rat? More importantly, can she throw Ryan Miller off her trail before falling in love with him?



What’s not to love about Ryan Miller? Staying up late is enough to prove that I’m definitely swooning over him. Being smitten to him would be an understatement especially when he flashes his cocky grin (so, ryan-ish eh?) And to tell you the truth, I only stop or pause reading it whenever I can’t get over with certain parts, like;


“After that day, every time I was with you I got brief glimpses of the real Jamie, the one who is dying to break out, and she was this fun, relaxed, smart, funny, smart and caring girl. … You’re amazing.”

I love you Jamie Baker.” *faints*


Oh yeah I’ve read a lot of books but, this one made my friends thought that I was really out of my mind ‘cos I tend to smile or giggle anytime Ryan comes to my mind. They even questioned how much ‘Human’ I am because they say I only get smitten or crazy over fictional characters instead of being a superfan girl and all with real persons (actors bla bla bla) but, who cares? I am living in my own little (AND FANTASTIC) world!

The good thing about this book is; the chapters are fast-pacing enough to blew your mind with such revelations and quite emotional scenes. It is very funny! The exchange of dialogues were really cool! And that’s what I really admire about Kelly Oram, she has a good humor! To think that this book is about ‘hero’ thing (cos offend times book with this kind of genre are quite serious) and she made this super duper cute and cool, goes to show how much humor her inner beauty possesses! I liked her ever since I read her book entitled ‘The Avery Shaw Experiment’.

So, I am not encouraging or forcing you to read Being Jamie Baker (cos it’s a pain in the ass to have so many rivals with Ryan’s heart), I am just BEGGING you because this book is so freakin’ awesome. I really don’t mind that others see it having a weak plot or whatsover, for me if you’re into super powers and cool protagonist (I love you Jamie Baker!) then I could say Being Jamie Baker should be on your next-to-read list!


Jamie: I love you.

Ryan: Told you so.


Ciao! (:

Book Review 101: Unbreakable by Elizabeth Norris

If there is a word that would best describe how I felt about reading this book, it’ll be BREATHTAKING.


Unbreakable is the second and last book (unfortunately) for the sci-fi/dystopian novel Unraveling. Which is of course written by Ms. Elizabeth Norris.


After saving her Earth, Janelle thought that this would put an end to all the things that involves multiverse and even with the IA- but, she’s definitely wrong.


While recovering from Earth’s mere destruction and while feeling all blue after Ben went back to his own world, Janelle will find something bigger than what she’s facing right now. All of a sudden, Interverse Agent Taylor Barclay shows up saying that she needs her help.


Now, she’s only given five days to save people from being abducted, find who was in charge of it and find Ben who was eventually the prime suspect in this case before his family get executed and before they find her own family. But, how could she do all of this if there are certain persons around her whose not worth to be trusted?


I almost end up being so disappointedwhen I’m reading the middle part of this novel. It’s not because I hate the novel itself, but how Elizabeth Norris made me go wild and turn me suddenly into a cry-baby with how Janelle and Ben’s love story became a little mess and complicated. I don’t know if I’m just being overly attached with this novel or is it just I’m certainly out of my sanity even before I read this one because you know what, I end up crying after reading this.


But, all throughout there are certain things that’ll make this novel a worth reading one:

– It’s an action packed novel that will make your heart skip a beat. I actually find myself holding my breathe often times because it felt like every chapter is a jam packed series of climax!

– Who wouldn’t love exploring different Earths? I know for sure you’d love to drink some hydrocloradneum and portal to different Earths or even borrow Barclay’s quantum charger for an accurate place to go. (But, I’m afraid it will eventually brought us to Wave Function Collapse.)

– It’s a different way of how a love story actually happened- two persons from two different worlds trying to find ways of how they could possibly fit in together with no problems to bear.


And of course it tells a story about Government– that despite the fact that there are good guys bringing out the best in them to serve their people, there are still some who are self-centered enough to forget who and what they make hold as part of an organization and a government.

It also tells about how women and children should be protected from slavery and abuse. How they should be taken care of and how they should be loved by all the people around them.


UNBREAKABLEis not just an ordinary sci-fi novel- i’s a jam-packed series of action, love, heroism and honesty that will surely abduct your heart to a different kind of Earth!


P.S Will I be out of the line if I say that because of this novel it took me forever to go on with my life and decide what I should do with it? Ms. Norris really got me! Really hard.


I do hope that you guys enjoyed reading my review and somehow manage not to put a bad finger on me 😉


(Again, I’m sorry if this review as well as my grammar sucked to death. )

Book Review 101: Unraveling by Elizabeth Norris

So, this would be my first ever book review in my seventeen years of existence! Cheers to that! Hahaha

And since I’m a newbie in this field (it took me a year to decide if I should really do this because honestly, I’m not a good critic at all. Just trying my luck) and my sisters have already lose their patience with me talking and sharing my thoughts with every books that I’ve read (like going mad and all like an idiot)- I am really sorry (in advance) if my reviews would suck. Though I’m 99% sure no one will try to read all of these reviews. But, I’ll say sorry anyway.



So, while browsing in Goodreads, I saw this book by Elizabeth Norris and got interested with it’s cover and title (thanks to my friend who had marked it as to-read). I’m really a big fan of Dystopian-Utopian and Sci-Fi novels and since this book is all about a girl named Janelle Tenner whose eager to stop the countdown and save the world, I give it a try.


And viola! I am deeply in love with this book!


This book is all about Janelle Tenner- a responsible and cool daughter and sister to her family. Until one die, she got hit by a truck and saved by Ben Michaels- a guy she never paid attention at all. So while wondering how Ben Michaels had saved her from being dead, she discovers this countdown from different pictures in her dad’s unsolved case files- and now she has to save the world from massive destruction and uncover Ben’s real identity.


Unraveling is a lot different with all the books that I’ve read. Though it’s all about what will happen with the Earth if we continue to be stubborn enough to value it, what makes it different is that it has this multiverse thing! Imagine if this is not the only Earth in this universe? yes, there are lots of Earth in this book which makes it different from the others. Another thing that makes this book different is the complication about Janelle and her love interest Ben Michaels- because they literally came from different Earths.


I know it’s quite silly but, after reading this book, I started to have doubts if this is the only Earth with humans, you know. Is this what we call hang-over from a book? Hahaha. Kudos to Elizabeth Norris! And thank you for replying to my tweet ‘bout this book!



I hope this review will somehow get you inspired to read this one! Thanks :*