Book Review: The Truth About You and Me by Amanda Grace


From Goodreads:

Smart girls aren’t supposed to do stupid things.

Madelyn Hawkins is super smart. At sixteen, she’s so gifted that she can attend college through a special program at her high school. On her first day, she meets Bennett. He’s cute, funny, and kind. He understands Madelyn and what she’s endured – and missed out on – in order to excel academically and please her parents. Now, for the first time in her life, she’s falling in love.

There’s only one problem. Bennett is Madelyn’s college professor, and he thinks she’s eighteen – because she hasn’t told him the truth.

The story of their forbidden romance is told in letters that Madelyn writes to Bennett – both a heart-searing ode to their ill-fated love and an apology.



I want to hate this book for giving us, readers, such a melancholy ending for our  lead characters.

And I also want to be happy that it ended in a way that these two characters find their own happiness even if it means they’d have to do it on separate paths.

But I just can’t. Let me get my thoughts straight and finish this review (after being on a hiatus for like forever) without getting myself so much into it I feel like I am Madelyn.

Yes, the story is a forbidden relationship between a teacher and student, with Maddy lying about (in a subtle yet really sneaky way) her real age to her Bio professor, Mr. Bennett (who’ve been in a devastating relationship before meeting Maddy).

And yes, they got caught and Bennett almost got prisoned, but didn’t so he move thousand miles away from Madelyn to move on and live a new life.

So what makes this any different from any other student-teacher love story you’ve read before?

Not much difference actually.

But this light read will make you reminisced how in every adult or young adult in us, we actually had an infatuation with our teacher/instructor/professor before- and have an actual realization that maybe our feeling were or weren’t true, but it’s a feeling that we will never forget until we’re old and gray.

And somehow I’ve had this thought that this also goes to show that somehow the infatuation we have felt that had never escalated into things we have imagined, goes to say that we are just young individuals craving for attention and companion just like how Maddy have craved it from Bennett since her family highly focuses on her getting good grades and getting in good Uni with a nice course.

But nevertheless, thank you Ms. Amanda Grace for happily breaking my heart. Hoping to read good books from you soon!



‘Why do I feel like I’m lost?’ – The Taboo Life Crisis

You start the day with a bright outlook on life.

You greet your loved ones and colleagues with that bright smile on your face- energy radiating in you. This day is going to be good.

And then in a blink of an eye, you just feel lost.


Your brain clouded with thoughts while you try to calm yourself and appear like you have figured out life. Then it hits you.

What am I doing with my life?

When people are traveling, I’m at home binge-watching a series not going to happen in real life.
When people are socializing, I’m at home scrolling through hundreds of feeds, complaining about my life and how messed up it is.
When people are actually living, I’m just there, staring and wondering, bewildered as to what kind of formula they’ve used to actually feel satisfied with what they have.

I hate Math.
I suck at Math.
Does this mean I suck in life too?

When I finish studying I thought it shall put an end to the era of endless dramas I have in life. But I forgot that after the college era, LIFE ERA is there to suck the optimism out of me. People would be shocked to know how I feel about life for they’ve known me as someone who has always been positive and whatnot.

And it wasn’t a facade. I am happy.
Happy to be alive, happy to wake up each morning hearing how loud my family can be.
Happy to work, happy to go to work even if it means facing clients who will never ever be satisfied and will always blame me for everything (even the changes in the password of their account they made themselves).
Happy to be here in this world, happy to witness and feel the sad, exciting, and melancholy experiences.

But there’s just this tiny hole I can’t escape. It’s pulling me into my darkest moments.
And in those moments, when I try to look for answers, to look for help, I realize that we all have these tiny holes in life.
My sister could have it.
My parents could have it.
My best friend could have it.
The person sitting next to me on the train could have it.

But we aren’t talking about it for we think it’s a ‘petty’ thing when in fact this petty thing is what keeps you demotivated in life. It is what keeps your family sad because they don’t how you became this lifeless human being. It is what keeps the society stuck in the dilemma that this little hole is a taboo topic.

No one should have it nor feel it.
But we are continuously going to have it.
And unless we talk about it, that hole? It’ll keep getting bigger until it’s big enough to suffocate you.

Movie Review: Bad Genius

Bad Genius Movie Review

Bad Genius is definitely one of the many films this 2017 that you shouldn’t miss. The premise of the film is something that anyone at any age could relate to. It’s a Thai film that centers on Lynn, a scholar who earns money by cheating tests. Lynn was given the opportunity to earn more by cheating the STIC (SAT) exam in Sydney, Australia together with another genius student, Bank. Gaining millions of Baht with this new task, Lynn is willing to risk everything just to get the right answers and bring it back to Thailand before the STIC exam takes there.

Cheating is an open secret and a taboo in schools and different institutions. The Bad Genius film have well-depicted how students will do whatever it takes to pass exams. Even though the plot of the movie is considerable common and stereotype, you may go and see for yourself how this film will disappoint your expectations in a good way.

The cinematic, music, thrill, and the character development of the characters and diversity of the scenes makes the film worth every penny. Not only did it break the usual horror or overly romantic Thai films, but Bad Genius, directed by Nattawut Poonpiriya have gave in an innovative suspense film to the public.

I’d also like to think that the film do not only represent cheating happening at schools, but also this happen in our lives on all forms.


Book Review: Even When You Lie To Me by Jessica Alcott

When The Meaning of Meaning Starts To Feel Meaningless


In just one sitting, as I stare at the last page thinking how this book managed to ruined half of my future plans in life, I just realized two things all at once- one, if you want to cuss all day about how good this book is, then better start reading and skipped this review at all. And two, I’d like to warn you that this book might score you straight home.

First things first, the story is all about a shy and bookworm teenage girl that found love and self-acceptance in the persona of her English teacher- yes, a student-teacher relationship to which we may see as forbidden but exciting, consuming, steamy, and let’s admit it, a usual plot. I know some of you may feel like, ‘Why bother reading a book that goes the same with all other books?’

This book just hits you straight in the heart in a very painful and truthful way. I may not do enough justice to justify how I felt upon reading this book because it’s just painfully beautiful I want to smack everyone in my line of sight.

“… No one’s that special. No one’s meant for you. It’s not ill-fated or star-crossed or unjust. It’s just desire, stupid and meaningless and base.”

“… Why is it so easy to see that other people’s lives are random and pointless and so hard to see that your own is too?”

That is what I’m talking about people.

From Goodreads:

Charlie, a senior, isn’t looking forward to her last year of high school. Another year of living in the shadow of her best friend, Lila. Another year of hiding behind the covers of her favorite novels. Another year of navigating her tense relationship with her perfectionist mom.

But everything changes when she meets her new English teacher. Mr. Drummond is smart. Irreverent. Funny. Hot. Everyone loves him. And Charlie thinks he’s the only one who gets her.

She also thinks she might not be the only one with a crush.

In this stunning debut, Jessica Alcott explores relationships-and their boundaries-in a way that is both searingly honest and sympathetic.

Book Review: Just One Day by Gayle Forman


From Goodreads:

Allyson Healey’s life is exactly like her suitcase—packed, planned, ordered. Then on the last day of her three-week post-graduation European tour, she meets Willem. A free-spirited, roving actor, Willem is everything she’s not, and when he invites her to abandon her plans and come to Paris with him, Allyson says yes. This uncharacteristic decision leads to a day of risk and romance, liberation and intimacy: 24 hours that will transform Allyson’s life.

A book about love, heartbreak, travel, identity, and the “accidents” of fate,Just One Day shows us how sometimes in order to get found, you first have to get lost. . . and how often the people we are seeking are much closer than we know.

The first in a sweepingly romantic duet of novels. Willem’s story—Just One Year—is coming soon!


So, I’ve been quite a wanderlust while reading . Europe is my dream and past life continent. One thing that I’m concern about, probably by the fact that I’ve watched Taken, is that how can a teenager agree to go with a stranger in a foreign place? Even if he flashes the most tantalizing smile of all time, I’ll disagree for sure.

But then why am I taking the story seriously? When I can laugh, smile, cry, and ponder the difference of falling in love and being in love all at once?

Just One Day seemed to resemble If I Stay’s book two Where She Went (which was both written by Gayle Forman) in the part where two persons start to wander into different places and by the end of the day, realizations came pouring down like a bad-ass villain showering electrocutes all over you. You don’t have to like and love the book, you’re just going to involuntarily do it. Everyone is an adventure seeker, and if given the chance that travelling was free, I bet I’d never see you in your house reading this.

Just One Day is for everyone 1. who wants to feel the vibe of Europe in a very compelling and creative story telling of two strangers traveling in a country in search for some accidents that’ll make the trip more memorable 2. for those who might want to come out of their comfort zone and realized that well, life is waving with its hands and feet swaying to encourage and experience it and 3. if you want another Etienne St. Clair and Anna love story style (Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins), you should definitely go for this book.

From death to life, travel to unexpected romance, Gayle Forman never lose the style of getting readers’ attention, I mean she has the magic in her hands and mind to play with words so good that you ought to adore her skills in narrating and giving her characters its own life and distinctions, like they were really real in the first place. The thing about Gayle Forman’s books is that they always talk about the “after”, not the kind of happily ever after but the realistic “after” of every situation the characters are in.

Yes, the last part is my review and the first part is my wistful and babbling mind.

Book Review: Attachments by Rainbow Rowell


From Goodreads:

“Hi, I’m the guy who reads your e-mail, and also, I love you . . . ”

Beth Fremont and Jennifer Scribner-Snyder know that somebody is monitoring their work e-mail. (Everybody in the newsroom knows. It’s company policy.) But they can’t quite bring themselves to take it seriously. They go on sending each other endless and endlessly hilarious e-mails, discussing every aspect of their personal lives.

Meanwhile, Lincoln O’Neill can’t believe this is his job now- reading other people’s e-mail. When he applied to be “internet security officer,” he pictured himself building firewalls and crushing hackers- not writing up a report every time a sports reporter forwards a dirty joke.

When Lincoln comes across Beth’s and Jennifer’s messages, he knows he should turn them in. But he can’t help being entertained-and captivated-by their stories.

By the time Lincoln realizes he’s falling for Beth, it’s way too late to introduce himself.

What would he say . . . ?

Attachments is officially my dream “if ever I get employed and I wish it would be sooner” love story. It is told in a unique way- altering between the exchange of e-mails between Beth and her bestfriend Jennifer (Love, Rosie/ Where Rainbows End attack) and narration of Lincoln’s life and his bizarre fascination with the two smart and funny ladies. Unlike Rainbow Rowell’s other books, (Landline, Eleanor and Park, and Fangirl) Attachments didn’t stick to me like a glue to a paper or a mother to a child at first.

At. First.

Rainbow Rowell always surprises me and before I knew it, I am more than glued to the book that I end up having three hours of sleep. Attachments is a light and the kind of adult contemporary book that will make you believe that somehow office hours are not such a buzzkill at all (based entirely when I am tagging along with my mother in their office where people talk upon entering and leaving their office). It talks about family, friendship, the pressure of marriage, having a child, getting married or not, sticking up with your job or not, and at the same I think in my part, always looking up for something good no matter how bad the situation is. Readers will easily love Beth and Jennifer’s friendship for they are the smart and witty women that well, reflect the personalities of other ladies out there. And who wouldn’t love the shy, our very own Cute Guy, Lincoln? I have to say that Rainbow Rowell did a great job on narrating a guy’s perspective, it is realistic and not over rated at all (you know the guys who act like a lady, think like a lady at all times). It is even refreshing that we are not rooting for rock stars for the nth time.

Rainbow Rowell, your first novel is a magic! Hoping we could have some tea together while I’m staring at you like a creepy fan. Ha-ha.

So if you are looking for a book, any book, just grab this one. I. Swear. Abraham Lincoln would be proud of you.


Book Review: All The Bright Places by Jennifer Niven


From Amazon:

Theodore Finch is fascinated by death, and he constantly thinks of ways he might kill himself. But each time, something good, no matter how small, stops him.

Violet Markey lives for the future, counting the days until graduation, when she can escape her Indiana town and her aching grief in the wake of her sister’s recent death.

When Finch and Violet meet on the ledge of the bell tower at school, it’s unclear who saves whom. And when they pair up on a project to discover the “natural wonders” of their state, both Finch and Violet make more important discoveries: It’s only with Violet that Finch can be himself—a weird, funny, live-out-loud guy who’s not such a freak after all. And it’s only with Finch that Violet can forget to count away the days and start living them. But as Violet’s world grows, Finch’s begins to shrink.

This is an intense, gripping novel perfect for fans of Gayle Forman, Jay Asher, Rainbow Rowell, John Green, and Jenny Downham from a talented new voice in YA, Jennifer Niven.


All The Bright Places is a mix of The Fault in Our Stars and Thirteen Reasons Why in my opinion. Both characters are smart just like Gus and Hazel and I remember Clay Jensen in the persona of Violet Markey and Hannah Baker in Theo Finch’s character.

It was unremarkey-bly beautiful and life-altering book that I’ve read. I am not saying that this the one-of-a-kind-i-need-book-two novel that I’ve read, more like this serve as an eye-opener to me and I do hope that you guys felt the same way. This book serve as a way for me to understand Finch- all the Finch that have been and are still in my life. The story of Violet and Markey have been close to my heart for I finally understood that I should not give up with my very own Finch. I never want him to feel so alone although I knew he felt like that every single day of his life.

It felt like there is something gnawing at my heart everytime I remember Theodore Finch. I was always render speechless every time it dawned on me that there are teenagers out there feeling like this- an empty feeling though you are alive, the anxiety like everything all around them is too much- the sound, colors, and people.

Jennifer Niven, I want to hug you right now.

Book Review: Cinder and Ella by Kelly Oram


From Goodreads:

It’s been almost a year since eighteen-year-old Ella Rodriguez was in a car accident that left her crippled, scarred, and without a mother. After a very difficult recovery, she’s been uprooted across the country and forced into the custody of a father that abandoned her when she was a young child. If Ella wants to escape her father’s home and her awful new stepfamily, she must convince her doctors that she’s capable, both physically and emotionally, of living on her own. The problem is, she’s not ready yet. The only way she can think of to start healing is by reconnecting with the one person left in the world who’s ever meant anything to her—her anonymous Internet best friend, Cinder.

Hollywood sensation Brian Oliver has a reputation for being trouble. There’s major buzz around his performance in his upcoming film The Druid Prince, but his management team says he won’t make the transition from teen heartthrob to serious A-list actor unless he can prove he’s left his wild days behind and become a mature adult. In order to douse the flames on Brian’s bad-boy reputation, his management stages a fake engagement for him to his co-star Kaylee. Brian isn’t thrilled with the arrangement—or his fake fiancée—but decides he’ll suffer through it if it means he’ll get an Oscar nomination. Then a surprise email from an old Internet friend changes everything.


I am so back in my real and unreal world! Although I have to say that I’m still in the midst of frustration and fear over my still unannounced grades! This semester really wreck my brain and body.

By the way, I know there are lots of readers out there who are waiting for their own  Cinder/ Brian Oliver. I can’t blame you, the has the charm.

But I have to say that Cinder and Ella didn’t really get me at the first chapters. I’ve read almost all of Kelly Oram’s books and I can’t help but be quite disappointed that it did not quite meet what I was expecting from this book. The first part where Ella was still in the state of devastation of accepting her mother’s death did not make at impact to me at all. She brought the subject like she was grieving but I barely felt the sadness at all.

But then again, I WAS WRONG and I stand to be corrected. As the story goes on, Ella slowly dissolve the barrier to her feeling that got me teary-eyed and all. I imagine patting her shoulder and mentally making a banner to cheer her up. Author Kelly Oram didn’t lose the magic to pinch my heart and make me feel like there’s a lump in my throat.

Overall, I had totally enjoyed reading it! You get to laugh, cry, and be wistful at times. Come on guys, Zac Efron/ Logan Lerman/ Ryan Guzman/ Alex Pettyfer (definitely my list) might be reading your blog for all you know.

Thank you Kelly Oram for keeping my hopes up! I’ll email you someday if ever Zac greeted me on my birthday! Hahaha! xoxo

Book Review: Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher


From Goodreads:

Clay Jensen returns home from school to find a mysterious box with his name on it lying on his porch. Inside he discovers thirteen cassette tapes recorded by Hannah Baker, his classmate and crush who committed suicide two weeks earlier.

On tape, Hannah explains that there are thirteen reasons why she decided to end her life. Clay is one of them. If he listens, he’ll find out how he made the list.

Through Hannah and Clay’s dual narratives, debut author Jay Asher weaves an intricate and heartrending story of confusion and desperation that will deeply affect teen readers.


My heart was still pounding after I’m done reading this book.

Okay, I did not exactly got the hype of this-is-so-damn-good-i’m-exploding feels, but I did got the “Mom, I think I’m getting a heart burn?” feels. Guess they were both the same. But, either way, Thirteen Reasons Why was a really nice book.

I honestly felt that things that has anything to do with suicide is out of feeling all alone eventhough they were not. I mean we feel alone several times in our lives, but it never dawn on me or to some of you, that out of complete helplessness and some self-centered thinking, you’d commit something bad to yourself. To put periods to all the questions left unaswered. But, like I always tell myself, we have different ways of coping with our own inner conflicts.

And Thirteen Reasons Why enlightened me with that matter. At the age so young and surrounded by minds of people with different goals and ways of proving themselves to others, I did understand that someone like Hannah Baker can’t take all of it. I now understand that not all people just get along with the flow, or do something about it right away. Sometimes, there are people who stop and look at it the way we never saw. Sometimes, it’s just too much for them when we think we can hanle it if we are in their shoes.

Okay, enough with my reflection paper.

Jay Asher, you got me first with your book “The Future us”, which was completely different with Thirteen Reasons Why. But, you got me once again. Just like any other authors that I’ve admired, you had a way of touching someone’s life with your words. You had me gripping and waiting for what will happen next. How I wish I could have that magic of yours too. Haha!

I must say this book is a must-read! It’s an eye opener and a way to understand what we thought was an act out of complete selfishness.

Jay Asher, I love you two times now. Waiting for you new books to be released!

Book Review: Twenty Boy Summer by Sarah Ockler



“Don’t worry, Anna. I’ll tell her, okay? Just let me think about the best way to do it.”
“Promise me? Promise you won’t say anything?”
“Don’t worry.” I laughed. “It’s our secret, right?”

According to Anna’s best friend, Frankie, twenty days in Zanzibar Bay is the perfect opportunity to have a summer fling, and if they meet one boy every day, there’s a pretty good chance Anna will find her first summer romance. Anna lightheartedly agrees to the game, but there’s something she hasn’t told Frankie–she’s already had her romance, and it was with Frankie’s older brother, Matt, just before his tragic death one year ago.

TWENTY BOY SUMMER explores what it truly means to love someone, what it means to grieve, and ultimately, how to make the most of every beautiful moment life has to offer.


Sarah Ockler’s Twenty Boy Summer broke my forever broken heart. And that’s what I told her.

It was all at once heart shattering, witty, and one of the most life altering book I’ve ever read. Another book that 1) I couldn’t put into words how much I’m enthralled and fascinated 2) made me realize how boring was my summer for the last years.

Sarah Ockler’s story telling skills was way too awesome that I can imagine myself wandering in Zanzibar Bay, California without even noticing it.

I took a deep breath, look around my room, felt my chest rising and falling slowly, and cried silently. It was hard to tell what’s real and not nowadays. It’s like a friend told me what happened to her last summer.

What really got me hooked with this book was how beautiful it was described and how the author played with her words with this book. Imagine the heat of the sun and warm breeze of the air all around you and how the water would splash in your feet like some enigmatic entity- Ockler really nailed it Though I’m a bit sensitive about the V part. They are only sixteen year old teenagers, helloooo Mother Nature.

But, all in all, I’m totally recommending this book for a summer escapade feeling or if you’re not feeling like it.

This is my I’m-back-after-sucking-my-life review! Hahahaha!